I know I haven't written in a while but it's been pretty busy around here and well I'm just gonna be honest I didn't really feel like writing.
Anyways today was an alright day, well actually it started off great then purple came over before school like always and he smelt soooooooooo unbelievably good. So as you can imagine I kinda went insane. He even looked really good today :( ugggh why do I have to love him .. ? whyyyyy? or why can't he love me back ? UUUUGGGH ! Hate my teenage life so far .. -.- Well anyways I completely love him and I dont think he even cares .. or notices? He needs to open his eyes .. :( erehjdjgfhdb love him. Oh yeah and today I found out that my ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend now .. :( like why is everyone dating but me? I'm so sad right now it's ridiculous! I want purple sooo bad. Or at least a relationship so I can possibly get my mind off purple a bit.. ugh. I hate people so much. No boys like me .. like at all im pretty sure. All of my friends are all so pretty and they all have boyfriends and they all have boys begging to go out with them i dont even have one boy that likes me.. life is really unfair. Why cant it be fair for once? Like honestly please .. grrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Im gonna go now
Peace,
Yellow
PS. purple please love me ..
Monday, September 21, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Saturday September 12, 2009
Today was an alrightish day I guess. My dad got me up at like 6 o'clock to go to work with him cause he's afraid I'll kill myself while he's gone or somethin I don't even know. And I was pretty pissed about that, who wants to wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning when they only got 2 hours of sleep the night before? NO ONE. So yeah the beginning of the day went horrible I guess. Then when we got to his work I asked him to take me home and I he said no so I had like a mental breakdown of crying and stuff. I basically was over tired, hungry and bored so I dont' really blame myself for throwing a temper tantraum (or however you spell that, lmfaaao). So then his boss (who is also my grandmother) sent us home for the day at like 10 o'clock and I've been sleeping since then. My dad is all concerned and stuff but whatever I'm fine jesus.
Yet again, guess who's on my mind? Take a wild guess ;p I wish he was here right now with me.. But he's at his dad's house this weekend so I won't see him until Monday morning (N). Oh well gives me time to pick out the hottest outfit I own, lmfao. Well I'll be sure to write tomorrow and all that. Byeee !
Peace,
yeeeellllow
ps. I'm really hungry right now .. Thought I would just mention that ..
pps. PURPLEEE (L)
Yet again, guess who's on my mind? Take a wild guess ;p I wish he was here right now with me.. But he's at his dad's house this weekend so I won't see him until Monday morning (N). Oh well gives me time to pick out the hottest outfit I own, lmfao. Well I'll be sure to write tomorrow and all that. Byeee !
Peace,
yeeeellllow
ps. I'm really hungry right now .. Thought I would just mention that ..
pps. PURPLEEE (L)
Friday, September 11, 2009
Heey guys :)
Alright so yeah I just did a blog like 3 hours ago but I'm soo bored you dont even know..
So I can't get purple outta my head.. UGH. I cannot stop thinking about him. I wish he would want to be more than friends. In a perfect or better world he would. But of course nooooooo life just can't go the way you want it to. Nope, it has to go the complete opposite. Dramatic? I'd say so.. but still god just one wish. Really like ONE freakin wish, is that too much to ask? I don't think so.. I want him to be my boyfriend so bad. I don't even care if it turns out bad I just need something to cheer me up now until I can get the help I need. Please God.. :( I wish he'd sign on facebook and just be like hey, wanna go out with me? and I'd be like YES I WOULD LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TO GO OUT WITH YOU. It'd be the best day of life. But nope, better not even get my hopes up, it's never gonna happen. Life is unfair I know but can't it be fair for once? I've been through so so so so much shit in the past so why can't I have one thing to make me feel better? Honestly? I just need someone to love me and take care of me and I think he'd be PERFECT. I mean I have my family and my other friends but I honestly don't care about any of them as much as him. I literaly miss him if I don't see him for one day. I'm not even kidding. Like I'll cry if I don't see him for like three days. That's how much I like him. He makes me feel so good about myself when we're together but when he's not around is when I get all emotional and stuff. Man do I ever want to just date him, even for like a couple months. Like even if I just dated him until like December or January. It would be the best months of my life probably. UGH purple, dude ask me out please. PLEASE! Message for all guys, don't kiss a girl and make her feel good and stuff then tell her you just wanna be friends cause then you end up with an emotional, suicidal reck. If you like her but don't wanna date her, DON'T KISS HER. Okay? OKAY. You just sit there and want her, dont make a move. Wish purple knew that ..
Honestly why are guys so clueless? Do they not see when a girl is basically throwing herself at them? Cause that's basically what I'm doing. I try to play it all cool and stuff but I cant help but flirt with purple a lot. I try to hold eye contact and touch him when I'm talking to him and do nice things for him but I dont think he gets what I'm hinting towards .. idiot. He would be so lucky to have me. I'm a really good girlfriend. I dont bitch and complain about things you do (I get even ;D), I wear cute clothes on dates and when I'm with him, I always make sure my breath smells good, I always shower, I dont try to get him to compliment me, I always compliment him, I do stuff he wants to do, I pretend to be interested in video games and stupid shows on tv, I like kissing and have been told that I'm a good kisser, I like doing stuff or relaxing, and I tell the person I'm dating that I love them regualrly. Like anybody gonna tell me I'm a bad girlfriend? Don't think so .. So why? UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHH .
Peace ,
yeelllow
ps. If you dont like reading my posts about purple and guys and stuff then you better stop reading now cause thats about all I think about so thats probably mostly what im post about.
So I can't get purple outta my head.. UGH. I cannot stop thinking about him. I wish he would want to be more than friends. In a perfect or better world he would. But of course nooooooo life just can't go the way you want it to. Nope, it has to go the complete opposite. Dramatic? I'd say so.. but still god just one wish. Really like ONE freakin wish, is that too much to ask? I don't think so.. I want him to be my boyfriend so bad. I don't even care if it turns out bad I just need something to cheer me up now until I can get the help I need. Please God.. :( I wish he'd sign on facebook and just be like hey, wanna go out with me? and I'd be like YES I WOULD LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TO GO OUT WITH YOU. It'd be the best day of life. But nope, better not even get my hopes up, it's never gonna happen. Life is unfair I know but can't it be fair for once? I've been through so so so so much shit in the past so why can't I have one thing to make me feel better? Honestly? I just need someone to love me and take care of me and I think he'd be PERFECT. I mean I have my family and my other friends but I honestly don't care about any of them as much as him. I literaly miss him if I don't see him for one day. I'm not even kidding. Like I'll cry if I don't see him for like three days. That's how much I like him. He makes me feel so good about myself when we're together but when he's not around is when I get all emotional and stuff. Man do I ever want to just date him, even for like a couple months. Like even if I just dated him until like December or January. It would be the best months of my life probably. UGH purple, dude ask me out please. PLEASE! Message for all guys, don't kiss a girl and make her feel good and stuff then tell her you just wanna be friends cause then you end up with an emotional, suicidal reck. If you like her but don't wanna date her, DON'T KISS HER. Okay? OKAY. You just sit there and want her, dont make a move. Wish purple knew that ..
Honestly why are guys so clueless? Do they not see when a girl is basically throwing herself at them? Cause that's basically what I'm doing. I try to play it all cool and stuff but I cant help but flirt with purple a lot. I try to hold eye contact and touch him when I'm talking to him and do nice things for him but I dont think he gets what I'm hinting towards .. idiot. He would be so lucky to have me. I'm a really good girlfriend. I dont bitch and complain about things you do (I get even ;D), I wear cute clothes on dates and when I'm with him, I always make sure my breath smells good, I always shower, I dont try to get him to compliment me, I always compliment him, I do stuff he wants to do, I pretend to be interested in video games and stupid shows on tv, I like kissing and have been told that I'm a good kisser, I like doing stuff or relaxing, and I tell the person I'm dating that I love them regualrly. Like anybody gonna tell me I'm a bad girlfriend? Don't think so .. So why? UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHH .
Peace ,
yeelllow
ps. If you dont like reading my posts about purple and guys and stuff then you better stop reading now cause thats about all I think about so thats probably mostly what im post about.
Friday September 11, 2009
Hi everyone, well probably no one is reading this but whatever.. hi to anyone who is ..
Hi I'm a fourteen year old girl and I'd prefer to not tell you my name right now.. maybe in a later blog? For now you can just call me yellow ;D cool eh? Anyways I live in Canada , tell you later? Possibly .. And my favourite colour is yellow but my other favourite is blue :) I have emotion issues or somethin? Iddkk but my therapist person thingy told me to start writing a blog so here I am writing a blog .. :) Hopefully I enjoy writing it and you enjoy reading it! I'm going to try writing everyday or at least 3 times a week. I'll just write about random things that are on my mind at the moment. I have to tell you I cut myself because of a boy I really really really like... ugggggggh . Our parents dated for three months so we got pretty close and we're like besties now. We even have sleepovers and stuff. I can tell him anything. Like I mean anything other than the fact that I love him.. But I'm pretty sure he likes me too because on a trip this summer he made out with me like four times aha :) :) (L)(L)(L) it was ahmazing I'm telling you. He's such a greater kisser. But then he said he wants to be friends cause he doesnt wanna ruin what we have and that people will think its weird if we date cause our parents used to.. COMPLICATED SHIT IM TELLING YOU. :) So yeah we'll refer to him as purple ;D Get it cause purple and yellow are complimentry colours? ;p ahahahaha.
So here I guess I'll tell you a bit about my interests:
favourite coulour: yelllow or bluee
favourite food: pizza, poptarts, chocolate, pineapple, bananas, strawberries, ETC. :)
favourite band: slipknot feer sure
favourite song right now: duality (by slipknot ;p)
favourite place to shop: american eagle
favourite flavour of ice cream: vanilla with sprinkles xD
I just started highschool and I like it so far. It's much better than elementry school I think. It's stressful and confusing at first but you get used to it.
So yeah now you know a little about me. Hope you keep reading :)
peace out ,
yellllow ;D
ps. sorry for all the random writing I'll try to do it neater next time, I'm just really bored and stuff so I just was randomly saying things.
pps. (L) purple
Hi I'm a fourteen year old girl and I'd prefer to not tell you my name right now.. maybe in a later blog? For now you can just call me yellow ;D cool eh? Anyways I live in Canada , tell you later? Possibly .. And my favourite colour is yellow but my other favourite is blue :) I have emotion issues or somethin? Iddkk but my therapist person thingy told me to start writing a blog so here I am writing a blog .. :) Hopefully I enjoy writing it and you enjoy reading it! I'm going to try writing everyday or at least 3 times a week. I'll just write about random things that are on my mind at the moment. I have to tell you I cut myself because of a boy I really really really like... ugggggggh . Our parents dated for three months so we got pretty close and we're like besties now. We even have sleepovers and stuff. I can tell him anything. Like I mean anything other than the fact that I love him.. But I'm pretty sure he likes me too because on a trip this summer he made out with me like four times aha :) :) (L)(L)(L) it was ahmazing I'm telling you. He's such a greater kisser. But then he said he wants to be friends cause he doesnt wanna ruin what we have and that people will think its weird if we date cause our parents used to.. COMPLICATED SHIT IM TELLING YOU. :) So yeah we'll refer to him as purple ;D Get it cause purple and yellow are complimentry colours? ;p ahahahaha.
So here I guess I'll tell you a bit about my interests:
favourite coulour: yelllow or bluee
favourite food: pizza, poptarts, chocolate, pineapple, bananas, strawberries, ETC. :)
favourite band: slipknot feer sure
favourite song right now: duality (by slipknot ;p)
favourite place to shop: american eagle
favourite flavour of ice cream: vanilla with sprinkles xD
I just started highschool and I like it so far. It's much better than elementry school I think. It's stressful and confusing at first but you get used to it.
So yeah now you know a little about me. Hope you keep reading :)
peace out ,
yellllow ;D
ps. sorry for all the random writing I'll try to do it neater next time, I'm just really bored and stuff so I just was randomly saying things.
pps. (L) purple
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