Heey guys :)

Alright so yeah I just did a blog like 3 hours ago but I'm soo bored you dont even know..

So I can't get purple outta my head.. UGH. I cannot stop thinking about him. I wish he would want to be more than friends. In a perfect or better world he would. But of course nooooooo life just can't go the way you want it to. Nope, it has to go the complete opposite. Dramatic? I'd say so.. but still god just one wish. Really like ONE freakin wish, is that too much to ask? I don't think so.. I want him to be my boyfriend so bad. I don't even care if it turns out bad I just need something to cheer me up now until I can get the help I need. Please God.. :( I wish he'd sign on facebook and just be like hey, wanna go out with me? and I'd be like YES I WOULD LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE TO GO OUT WITH YOU. It'd be the best day of life. But nope, better not even get my hopes up, it's never gonna happen. Life is unfair I know but can't it be fair for once? I've been through so so so so much shit in the past so why can't I have one thing to make me feel better? Honestly? I just need someone to love me and take care of me and I think he'd be PERFECT. I mean I have my family and my other friends but I honestly don't care about any of them as much as him. I literaly miss him if I don't see him for one day. I'm not even kidding. Like I'll cry if I don't see him for like three days. That's how much I like him. He makes me feel so good about myself when we're together but when he's not around is when I get all emotional and stuff. Man do I ever want to just date him, even for like a couple months. Like even if I just dated him until like December or January. It would be the best months of my life probably. UGH purple, dude ask me out please. PLEASE! Message for all guys, don't kiss a girl and make her feel good and stuff then tell her you just wanna be friends cause then you end up with an emotional, suicidal reck. If you like her but don't wanna date her, DON'T KISS HER. Okay? OKAY. You just sit there and want her, dont make a move. Wish purple knew that ..

Honestly why are guys so clueless? Do they not see when a girl is basically throwing herself at them? Cause that's basically what I'm doing. I try to play it all cool and stuff but I cant help but flirt with purple a lot. I try to hold eye contact and touch him when I'm talking to him and do nice things for him but I dont think he gets what I'm hinting towards .. idiot. He would be so lucky to have me. I'm a really good girlfriend. I dont bitch and complain about things you do (I get even ;D), I wear cute clothes on dates and when I'm with him, I always make sure my breath smells good, I always shower, I dont try to get him to compliment me, I always compliment him, I do stuff he wants to do, I pretend to be interested in video games and stupid shows on tv, I like kissing and have been told that I'm a good kisser, I like doing stuff or relaxing, and I tell the person I'm dating that I love them regualrly. Like anybody gonna tell me I'm a bad girlfriend? Don't think so .. So why? UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGHHHHH .

Peace ,
yeelllow

ps. If you dont like reading my posts about purple and guys and stuff then you better stop reading now cause thats about all I think about so thats probably mostly what im post about.